Updated: May 19, 2020
I’ve meditated every day for 4 years.
For me, meditation means awareness. Sitting down, observing, watching as the shitstorm unfolds in my own head. I just watch, see, observe. I don’t judge, I don’t wish to change it, I just accept it.
This is so different from how I’ve dealt with everything in my life.
I’m usually an attacker, I take things head-on, pushing through the pain. I do things when my body doesn't want me to do it and I definitely don't listen to it when it tells me to stop.
But meditation for me is the way of acceptance. It is stoic philosophy bundled into daily practice. One watches, and whatever comes up deep from the abyss becomes the way.
The thoughts that arise are not you, they are created by the machine that is your body, a processor that takes in stimulus from the outside and inside world and relays those messages to your conscious thoughts.
This is the awareness, the ability to separate yourself from the machine.
The more you try and change something the more it resists. Once you accept something and its metaphorical guard goes down, then it is open to change.
One major example of this was my food addiction. I could never quit binging on food, no matter how hard I "tried".
I tried to “fight” it off for years and it slowly got better, very slowly, through shire fucking willpower. But there was no lasting change.
The only way I ever got through it was awareness. I meditated every day and I started to realise that these urges were not me but were just in my body. As soon as I just watched these urges, figured out where they came from in my body, and why I was feeling them in the first place, they just subsided. No fighting, no hardship, just awareness.
This can be related to so many other addictions.
Mindfulness was used as a rehab tool for smokers. After a 4-week course, the smokers realised that smoking tasted like shit and they stopped. They had gained awareness, and mindfulness allowed them to do this.
Meditation also helps in day to day life.
It contributes to stopping the habit of rumination, constantly replaying past life events, and plunges you into the present, the only real moment we have.
Time itself is a construct by us human beings and we have developed the incredible ability to predict the future and replay past events. But none of those events are real, they are only real at the moment we have right now.
Meditation grants us the power and serenity to be plunged into the present moment, allowing us to stop thinking about what our boss said last week and to actually look up and appreciate the vibrance of the flowers, the smell of the fresh countryside air, or the breathtaking view of the sunset.
It stops us from worry, constantly thinking about the future, and teaches us to simply accept whatever comes up and deal with it at that moment.
So that’s why meditation changed my life, it took me out of my head, into awareness of my body and mind. It plunged me into the present moment, the only moment there really ever was.
So let me know, do you guys meditate? I'd love to know your views/experiences of the practice!
I'd recommend loading up a video on youtube, or downloading the app headspace if you'd like to get started.
Feel free to message me/email me with any questions, or just for a chat about meditation :)